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dear "broken hearted;"

to be honest, your heart is in one. your complete, i promise. first "love" is normally a term taken awfully wildly out of context. he may have been your first kiss, or your first date, or simply the first guy to pay you mind. but trust me when i say, HE IS NOT THE LAST. your not alone. much less, your never going to be alone.

in any way shape or form. you can get past this, and you can and will move on. of course my dear, it will take longer than you hope for, and probably longer than your friends want to hear about, but its gonna happen. Its a terrible for it to seem like your never going to find that feeling again, that feeling of being appreciated, cared about, liked, accepted, fearless. You let those feelings creep in, he didn't give them to you, pinky promise, if you dig deep enough you can find those feelings all on your own. Learn how to live without someone, before trying to let somebody else in. This may be the last time, and it may be the first of many, either way I know your strong enough to conquer any mountain, to step over any obstacle.
 You got this. Keep praying. Keep seeking.
I firmly believe that love will find you when the times right, so be patient my darling. Use the word very tenderly, make it the most cherished word in your vocabulary. Cherish it. "I love you" is no statement to be thrown around.

ignorance is bliss?

my mind starts to wonder, then i start to create my own little storybook of what happened. i kind of feel like the avoidance of telling me is really just making me more angry. OF COURSE i'm still curious...what really happened? You promised you would tell me some day. well, heres some day. tell me.

did you just wake up that morning and insist on crushing somebodies heart? did you decide to invade as soon as you found out? did you push him to do it? did you call him at night and tell him you still loved him? did you have something against him being happy with someone other than you? did you text him songs like you used to? did you think you still had his mind in your control?

Seem like you got what you wanted.

But now, i hope you realize the fight really wasn't worth it...