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dear "broken hearted;"

to be honest, your heart is in one. your complete, i promise. first "love" is normally a term taken awfully wildly out of context. he may have been your first kiss, or your first date, or simply the first guy to pay you mind. but trust me when i say, HE IS NOT THE LAST. your not alone. much less, your never going to be alone.

in any way shape or form. you can get past this, and you can and will move on. of course my dear, it will take longer than you hope for, and probably longer than your friends want to hear about, but its gonna happen. Its a terrible for it to seem like your never going to find that feeling again, that feeling of being appreciated, cared about, liked, accepted, fearless. You let those feelings creep in, he didn't give them to you, pinky promise, if you dig deep enough you can find those feelings all on your own. Learn how to live without someone, before trying to let somebody else in. This may be the last time, and it may be the first of many, either way I know your strong enough to conquer any mountain, to step over any obstacle.
 You got this. Keep praying. Keep seeking.
I firmly believe that love will find you when the times right, so be patient my darling. Use the word very tenderly, make it the most cherished word in your vocabulary. Cherish it. "I love you" is no statement to be thrown around.

ignorance is bliss?

my mind starts to wonder, then i start to create my own little storybook of what happened. i kind of feel like the avoidance of telling me is really just making me more angry. OF COURSE i'm still curious...what really happened? You promised you would tell me some day. well, heres some day. tell me.

did you just wake up that morning and insist on crushing somebodies heart? did you decide to invade as soon as you found out? did you push him to do it? did you call him at night and tell him you still loved him? did you have something against him being happy with someone other than you? did you text him songs like you used to? did you think you still had his mind in your control?

Seem like you got what you wanted.

But now, i hope you realize the fight really wasn't worth it...

as if,

sometimes it feels like the past was so real.
But when i think about it, it wasn't real at all.
I was being faked out in a wonderful reality of my own creation.
You weren't really everything you said you were.
Nor did you stick to any promises.
And I wasn't to you what I convinced myself I was.
Not even close..

And then i was stuck in some dead zone.
where i couldn't grasp the entirety of it all.
Much less, grasp the untruth of the whole thing.
I was stuck here, in a hole where i was drowning in pity for the longest time.
It sucked man.
You turned me cold, lonely, broken.
Its been a difficult task to find who I was before I let you hop onto the ride of my life.

But don't worry,
I found myself when i was on the bottom.
It was ridiculous to put myself there in the first place.
Its okay, I can live my life without the confusion of you in it.

Maybe you linger in my mind at times.
But I vow to never let myself go like that again,
i refuse to let my guard down until i know its right.

No single soul deserves my whole heart until God proves to me its the right time.
I'm going to be guarded.
I'm going to be careful.
Proverbs 23:14 shall be my motto.
"GUARD YOUR HEART ABOVE ALL ELSE..."

just prove me wrong, somebody.

I am completely and utterly convinced that no guy in the general area around me is different.

None of them are on a mission to become men of courage, more less thier becoming men of bitterness.

But I am also convinced somebody, some wonderful soul IS, in fact, different. Its going to be a rare find, but my goal is to find that man who:


-Talks to me all on his own. With no utterence of his friends mouths, simply him, having the urge to speak to me.
-Does not tell me to trust him, even if its some simple 'you gotta trust me on this', sorry sir..but trust comes in time, let me build it myself. It should have to take no convincing, and i'll letcha know when it happens.
-Believes the words, "i love you" are sacred. And will also be one to save those words until we're truly ready to say them.
-Will ask to meet my family, before ever asking me on a date.
-Would be more than overjoyed to join me on a lovely church or youth group venture.
-Has not yet had a first love, and if he has, he is willing to accept new, and realize this could be different.
-Most of all, has a burning fire to be something more than what people would expect of a boy, especially me, and prove me wrong on all opinions i have on their species.

Where are you men of courage?

That devil will not win.

So, 

have you ever been in a situation where you just want to break down?

Everything around you is discouraging?

You can't escape.

Then,

 you bow your head,

"God, help me."

It never fails.

In some way, shape, or form;

God shows up.

That devil can't win.

That devil will not win.

Our God Reigns.

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Keep that pretty little head up.

You can't be defeated. 

:)

To be.

First and most importantly,

Our Faith.

We may spit out sob stories about failed relationships

or how bad someone did us.

But something you must know before we take you on this voyage.

Is we strive daily to walk closer to Jesus, to walk so close that even though

we don't deserve it he may hold on to our hand.

No matter what you hear, what we write in anger, in love, in infatuation know that

we strive to be more Christ-like, just like as you do, even though we may fail miserably..this blog is about advice and finding another way out through the beautiful nature of writing.

                                                                                                                     ForeverLove,
                                                                                                                                Nathallie.

Perspective.

Let me begin.

we are only teenagers.

 teenagers with a vision.

 with a dream.

with a fire.

 with an ambition.

we're setting goals day to day.

we're trying our best to keep these sweeping eyes focused on the truth.

We want to take you on a little field trip into our lives. Hop on, this journeys going to be crazy, but full of adventures. Let us fancy you with our stories.

  

This is the world, through our eyes.